Happie burfday sue teng

Im now at Sue Teng's house with her lessbian sister. XD
The other are now outside playin sumthin...
drinkin wine~
Wine game?? lolx

This blog is mostly said by sue ee
we are less 2gether - said ee ee
dun jealous arr Lih Yin~~ xD -Said sue ee
hahahaha

ALEX ask me to write his name here.. i have no idea why.

so wu liao leh..
i jz found out dat a guy named goh siao ooi like sue ee.. XD
i have totally no idea what to write about now
next blogs will have more foto's
XD

tata for now...
nitez
29.1.10

XD

teehee

My problem is finally solved.
Although...
I still cant say fully solved
bt d hard 1 is finally over
back to my normal life.

I hope dat things wont get worse or anything
AMITOFO~~~
pls help mie...

Though I und wad he is planning to do..
but.. im not really relaxed abt that plan..
aiksz..

1month is all thats needed...
jz 1 month! I can do it! xD
Ends as soon as possible!

25.1.10 - 2.14 am
Joline

HAHAHAAH~~~~FREEDOM!

Without caring... I dunno how to continue dis relationship.

HOHOHOO!!
BUT THANKS TO D ARGUEMENT TODAY!
IM BAK TO MY OLD SELF! EMOTIONLESS!!
I LOVE IT BABEH!!
NO SADNESS NO HAPPINESS!
OWH GEE~OH MY~ I FEEL SO GREAT!
AWESOMMMEEE~~

LESS PROBLEM TO CARE ABOUT TOO!!
HALELUJAH~
AMITOFO~~

But I do feel alil happie for this though.. XD

nitez ppl~

Maturity?

Had a damn arguement 2day..
FUCK!!!

Caring for a person is immature??
so that means not caring is mature?

U call urself mature when u smoke cuz u have 'pressure' ??
I say bull-shit!
Only sum childish immature faggot would smoke cuz of 'PRESSURE'
Wad? there's only 1 person in dis world that has stress n pressure??
hey! I have my own stress n pressure too! do you see ME smoke??
Im not that stupid to waste my own life!

Asking questions is also immature..
wtf?
i ask questions cuz i want to make sure.
I wanna know.
Im just worried..
n u say im immature..

I dun let u smoke cuz i care..
if ur juz one of my frens
See whether I care?
U wanna waste ur own life.. its not my problem
non of my business.
u mean nothing to me...

I will only care for d persons i really love..
but since u dun like it.. I wont anymore!

23.1.10 - 2.54 p.m
Joline

Another day~

Haiz..
another sad day...
feel like cursing every foul word i know..

Why do I have to go through days n problems like this?
What have I do wrong?
Why shud I suffer?

I have my own problems
but people just seem to add theirs to mine.
ARGH!!! I WANNA DIE!
feel like killing myself!
DAMN!

If only I could ignore all d stress n problems...
I just want to live a happy life.
isnt that possible?
why do ppl have to make my life misarable.
Its alr bad enuff...

No one ever helps me make my problem go away
neither do dey make me happy
Nothing can...
they might make me laugh for a few min.
but d smile n laughter goes aways after a min.
Why cant ppl help mi make my problems go away rather than making my happiness go.
FUCKKKK.!!!!

Everytime I try to be nice.
Tried to be calm.
Tried to forget.
Bt then another problem comes...
shiiittt~~~


22.1.10 - 11.10
Joline

Lol =="

WOOOWW~~ AMAZING!!!

People actually read my blog!!! hahaha
I tot no one reads my post cuz its too long.. XD
bt thx to d ppl who reads it~~
but ermm 1 favor.. pls follow if u have a blog too ya^^ or post ur link at d chat box..
make sure it can be opened..
thx again...

anyway...
IM still HATING PHYSICS!
skul stil sux.. life sux..
mainly everything sux

Physics,maths n add maths.
we're actually learning d same things..
but in 3 diff subs!
of course there's a lil diff..
but wtf... its making me seriously confused...

lolx..
now d good stuffs..
Jean really made me laugh hard today...
singing off tone is really great.. lolx

OH! I saw cells today!!
it was so cooL!!!
DAMN I LOVE BIO!!
its jz so stinkin fun!
bt its oni d onion cell n cheeck cell.. XD

I MISS ..
CHONNY!!!
XD
he's nxt post will oni be in FEB..
aww.. dats so long!!! ish!!!

TATA~~
GOING TWITTER NOW..
TWIT TWIT.. XDDD

21.1.10
'Hearts' - Joline
Mood : calm

THINGS I HATE & LIKE

HATE
1. PHYSICS!
2. SCHOOL PHYSICS TEACHER!
3. STPD FON!
4. YOU! XD (JK)
5. BITCHES!!!!
6. MORE PHYSICS!
7. MATHS!
8. JACOB!
9. HOUSEWORKS!
10. ARGUEMENTS!

LIKE
1. ME
2. BF
3. ME
4. BF
5. MY HAIR
6. LIH YIN DAR^^
(miss her siaa...all cuz fon prob kenot sms... _uckk)
7. BIOLOGY!!!!
8. ENGLISH
9. FACEBOOK
10. ME xD

WTF??!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WWTTFFFFFFF!!!!!

STUPID FON!!!!
KENOT ON!!!
KENOT SMS!!!
FUCKING UNLUCKY NIA!!!

1ST WEEK GT PROB JOR~
DEN NOW LIKE DIS!!!
REALLY FUCKIN' SOHAI FON!!!
DIAOOO~~~~!!!!!!!
NIA MA!!! CURSE D FELLA WHO CREATE DIS FON!! CURSE THE FACTORY!!!
ARGHH!!!!

nitez^^

Oh!~ These wonderful feelings..

(This might be long, but this is the only way to express my feelings)

(lazy to put colours)

Another normal schooling day.. I was extremely sleepy today but i still had to deal with school.
Sometimes I just wish i died or fainted in school. Well, that's not the point of this post.

As always, I brought my phone to school. Everyday waiting for 'his' msg to greet me in the morning.
Every single msg from him will really cheer me up. Even a single " yes ". Cuz when he replies, I knw that he is fine and not in any danger. Though at the same time I do get pissed when he replies One-Word answers. e.g : " En , Ya , Oh etc. " .
He had started working this year so its really hard for us to communicate.
Come to think of it, we don't really communicate that much.
Its always the same questions and answers, now, I even knw what he would say even before he replies. It's like talking to myself.
It does get boring sometimes. But I guess I just have to deal with it.

I want to know more about him! but sumhow, I feel as though he wouldn't let me to.
It feels like he is pushing me away from his life or doesn't want me to enter it.
(Not to say that I think that he doesnt feel I exist in his life.)
You can say he's a very selfish person, he never likes to share.
but I couldnt blame him. Im not that much of a difference either.
I've ask him of sharing it with me before and why doesnt he like to talk about his problems.
He said he doesnt want me to worry.

To me, thats just stupid.
I have been trying to tell him " Im ur gf. What am I here for? Im not just for show. We're suppose to be couples, we should be sharing our feelings, thoughts and helping each other out. " but I just wouldnt dare.
I dont want to bring up problems. I dont like to make the atmosphere cloudy.
Sometimes, I just feel as though we're not couples at all. I dont know him that well , neither does he knw me that well.
Sometimes I even feel we're better off as friends.

When I need help, when I'm sad or angry.
He doesnt cheer me up.
Instead, he just totally ignore me and changes the topic.
I use to tell him about it but he would just tell me his story abt the same problem.
Usually, in the end, its the other way around, I had to cheer him up or it turns to a fight!
That really made me sad so I didnt really bother about telling him how I feel anymore.
Mybe he's trying to make me forget? Maybe he is trying to cheer me up but he's jz not good at it? I dont know.
So I just couldnt jump to conclusions and saying that he's useless.

I do wish that sometimes he would ask " How are you? " like a normal friend.
I do miss the days when we we're just friends, the days when he was "chasing" me.
I miss the first day we met too. It was embarrasing but I was actually really happy.
I did some really stupid stuff that day.
But it was the first time I seen someone get so worried for me.
That made me really really happy.
Owh~how I miss that day.
I wish that day would just keep on replaying.

I do feel he still cares for me alot.
It shows sometimes but its really seldom.
Sometimes I still feel that he loves me and so do I.
Although he says it most of the nites.
Sometimes I just wish he wouldn't say it cuz it would mean nothing sooner or later if he keeps saying it.
I like it when my bf gives me a supprise by saying " I LOVE YOU ". Which girl wouldnt want that. It's just so romantic.
He use to do that but...... I guess things have changed?
Thats d only way he knows how to show me his love?

Some of my friends notice dat he is nt treating me tat well.
They asked me to let go.
But I just couldnt!
I let go once (regretted) but I just couldnt control myself to wanting him back BADLY!
I cried in d nights for him!
Even though he doesn't treat me that well.
There's like a string tied to my heart with his heart.
It's like we're ment to be together but I cant confirm that yet.
It's really hard to put this feeling in words but its a very pleasant feeling.

For example, other people might think that this is stupid, but to me, it means something.
Last night (15/1/10)
It was already 11.04 p.m, he still hasn't msg me to tell me he's done.
I was worried so I msged him first.
Then a msg came less than a sec " Baby... "
I was actually feeling very wierd.
Why did he replied the same thing as I just sent?
And I was a little angry cuz he was free and he did not find me.
Then I just asked him what he was doing.
Neither that I knw, I didn send the first msg to him.
He actually sent a msg to me 1st saying the same thing.
Deja Vu, It's like we're having the same thoughts and mind.

Sometimes, he randomly tells me that he misses me.
At the same moment, I was really missing him too.
It's like our hearts are really connected.
I don't really know how to express these but I hope you'll know what I mean.

Obviously, Jealousy and stuff like that occurs.
So I might misunderstand but I always think before I act. (not blowing my own trumpet here)
But that shows that I care. Right?

I knw that he doesnt treat me that well, friends have told me about it too.
Even he knows it himself.
I know that its hard for him to change.
With a life like his. I didnt want to give anymore trouble. I dont want to be a burden.
I just wanted to solve it.
He's not good with words.
He doesn't know how to express his feelings.
I have the same problems that he has too.
Therefore, I understand.
There are still certain ups about him. I guess that's what's pulling me to him.

He might not be romantic.
He's not the Mr.dreamy or Prince charming that Im looking for.
But hey, nobody's perfect right?
He and me, we have a totally different personalities.
He talks alot, but I dont. I rather be quiet.
But I had to talk or else it would be really boring and dates would turn into disasters.
I talk more on sms, he doesnt.
I dont like hanging out late night, he likes it.
I like to sleep early, he sleeps late.
etc etc.

But like what some people say
"opposite attracts " right?
It's proven by scientist so I believe it. Lolx
The relationship between a guy n a girl is like a magnet.
I also do believe in faith.
Now, I am really affraid of losing him.
He is a treasure to me.
He ment everything in my life to me.
I wonder if he feels the same way as I do.

Thats all for today.
Its really 'early' in the morning now.
Guess I should go to bed.
I really miss him T.T
I'll be really happy if he reads this. XD


16/1/10 - 1.59 a.m
<3 Joline

A lil bout ME

Chapter 1
1. Middle name: Chiew
2. Nickname(s): Joline
3. Current location: My room
4. Eye color: Hazel brown

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Chapter 2
1. Do you get along with your parent(s): Ya,bt sumtimes we fight, hey~ tats normal rite? XD
2.Are your parents married/separated/divorced

?: Married!

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Chapter 3: Favorites
1. Ice Cream: Vanilla
2. Season: winter,autumn
3. Shampoo/conditioner: Loreal
4. Favorite Thing: MY FON!

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Chapter 4: Do You..
1. Dance in the shower? - sometimes.. haha
2. Do you write on your hand? - no way! it looks n feels so dirty
3. Call people back? - NEVER!
4. Believe in God? _Yes of course!
5. Any bad habits? - Lazy
6. Any mental health issues? - No wayy!!
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Chapter 5: Have You..
1. Sprained stuff: Yup
2. Had physical therapy?: ehh... no
3. Gotten stitches? : Yup.. T,T
4. Taken painkillers: Yes
5. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling: snorkeling
7. Sworn in front of your parents? : yes. Quite a number of times
8. Had detention? : Nah.. no detentions here
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Chapter 6: Who/What was the last
1. Three people who texted you: Bf,Mom,crazy sis Jazz
2. Person you called: My mom
3. Person you hugged: bf
4. Person you tackled: Lil bro.. XD
5. Person you talked to on MSN?: Still talking wit 2,so i dont knw yet
6. Thing you touched? : I guess it would be my fon?
7. Thing you ate? : Wan tan mee
8. Thing you drank: water
9. Thing you said: Forgot~
10. Friend you saw ytd : Sue Ee, Li Shin

Random Questions

1. Where did you take your profile pic?
My Room

2. What exactly are you wearing right now?
Shirt n jeans

3. What is your current problem?
Studies

4. What makes you happy most?
Watching comedies

5. What's the name of the song that you're listening to?
none

6. Any celeb you would marry?
KIM HYUN JOONG , KIM JONG HYUN, KIM JUNSU, ADAM LAMBERT?(too bad he's gay)

7. Name someone/persons with the same birthday as you:
No one

8. Ever sang in front of a large audience?
Nope... but danced be4

9. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?
ya... JJ Lin =="

10. Do you still watch kiddy movies or kiddie TV shows?
Sometimes.. hahah when its really boring

11. Do you speak any other languages than English?
OBVIOUSLY!

12. Has anyone you've been really close passed away?
I dun think so~~

13. Do you ever watch MTV?
of course! d best channel!

14. What's something that really annoys you ?
ALOT! I can list till 100
but mainly... bossy ppl

I LOVE MYCHONNY!!!!

JEEZZ!!! I LOVE HIM SO MUCH!
HE IS LIKE THE KING OF MY LIFE (youtube)!
LOLX!

If u guys are wondering who d hell he is..
well.. here's a short intro abt him
CHONNY! is an asian teen who makes HILLARIOUS video's on youtube..
you know.. like nigahiga and those nonsense ppl.. lolx
Not only is he funny..
but he is so fkin right about the asians...
lolx.. most probably bcuz he is one =="
well he's kinda mix.. viet n chinese...
cute guy btw..

If u guys are bored or jz wanting to waste ur time..
u guys shud check his video's on youtube..
awesome i tel u! PURE AWESOME!!!!
or mayb jz check HIM out.. .wahahahaha
if u knw what i mean.. XD

im kinda lazy to post his link up here....
but its really easy to find his vids..
juz type mychonny or yourchonny (2nd acc) on youtube
and let the magic begin.. XD

Enjoy!

AMAZING DISCOVERY! (for me)

As I was just clicking on random videos on youtube today,
I found a really shocking yet interesting video...
and of course it linked to other amazing video's too...

I jz found out that WE can actually increase our BREAST SIZE by MASSAGING "IT"!
At first when I saw the name of dat video
I was like........ " WTF?! IS IT TRUE? IS IT POSSIBLE? WOW! "
den of course I had to watch it cuz i was jz so fuckin curious..

It was... erm.. how u say..
kinda... awkward?
It looks kinda like a porn video ==
but only better
By ' better ' i mean less discusting and less obscene. LOL
maybe its not that better for guys.. XD

I don't know if it actually work or not
cuz I havent tried it =="
but... there are damn alot of those massage videos!
here's one of em'



For girls who are really desprate for bigger boobs...
mayb u should try it out.. lolx
For guys... ehem....
who are desprate cuz u have a ' small boobed girl fren '
learn n try it out on them.. hahahahahaha
or u can try it on urself too???? @@"
lmao

I find most of it are done by thai n japs?
I dont know why there's no other countries doin this? lol?
mayb Malaysia should start having these massage palor?
or maybe we alr have,but its in places like CHOW KIT?
places WE young ppl dont go.. lolx
cuz.. u knw... SOME Malaysian MAN jz love girls who have big/huge BOOBS?
Then girls could get the man they want easily or the guys could get the girl of their dreams...
lolx...

Till here I guess...
enjoy the video n d massage!! XD
toodles~

The Start of Something New

Wow! finally made up my mine for d streams..

n i decided not to switch..

stickin in pure science... XD



but im damn sked weihh~~

its fun to learn , but when it comes to exam, i dunno how hard would that be..

OMG OMG OMG

Gotta start studyin hard.. T.T

hopefully my lazy-ness wont come bak..

how i wish it would juz fly away..



Well.. new year new things

New class, new frens , new thinking , new clothes , new bra? XD juz jk...

dont have enuff money to buy.. hahahaha

but no new bf.. wakakkaka...



anyway.. i hope i can have a great year....

and to all my frens... have a great year too.. ^^



till here...

tata~